

Hayden was a Supercute Superbaby for Halloween! We had fun surprising Grandpa Doug and Grandma Augusta for a "Trick or Treat" and also made the rounds over to Phil's parent's house. Daddy ate Hayden's candy for him, wasn't that nice of him?! Though no Butterfinger for me :( -- No milk chocolate candy of any kind! This non-dairy diet is brutal! I guess on the bright side, because I haven't been able to eat ice cream, brownies, cookies, cake, and milk chocolate, I'm down to my pre-pregnancy weight. I guess I have nursing a chunkasaurus to thank for that too. ;)
Even though our PEPS group officially "ended" on the 24th, we decided to continue meeting, and also get together for more Mommy's Night Outs and other fun events (that sometimes will also include the Daddies). I never could have imagined how wonderful it is to have this group to share the joys and challenges of parenting with, who are going through often EXACTLY the same things. They are incredible women and we have all bonded so well. We are also figuring out the possibility of a babysitting co-op so I'm looking forward to that too! Phil and I are continuing to host a couples' "Newlyparents Group" at our home every-other Saturday so with that, along with the moms I keep in touch with from my "You and Your New Baby" class, the moms from our KinderMusik class, and in our own family, I am surrounded by a support-network of other parents!
I never thought I'd say this, but I have insomnia. Before Hayden, my head would hit the pillow and I'd be asleep almost instantly. Now, I lay in bed for 1-2 hours every night trying to fall asleep. It seems like just when I finally start to drift off, Phil will start snoring, or Hayden will wake up, or a thought of something I need to remember to do will pop into my head and I'm wide awake all over again. The hardest part is that Hayden is actually sleeping pretty well now, so he's not even to blame! He'll go to sleep around 7:30pm, wake up at 2:30am or so for a feeding and fall right back to sleep, and then wake up at 6:30am. Then I bring him in bed with me and we snooze together until about 7:45am. The problem is, I go to bed around 10:30pm, it takes me until about midnight to actually fall asleep, so that 2:30 feeding wakes me up again, I'm awake until around 3:30 and it never feels like I got any sleep. I've recently received some good suggestions from friends and even my doctor, so we'll see if I can snap out of this insomnia!
Another challenge I am facing is this career as a Part-Time Freelance Designer. I thought the freelance opportunities would be plentiful and I could pick and choose what I'd want to take on. Turns out, it's been harder than I thought to have a steady flow of work, and then it seems a bunch come in all at once and I feel overwhelmed. I feel like being a full-time mom AND a part-time designer means I never get a break. Plus, I barely ever see Phil. When he gets home from work, I make dinner while he plays with Hayden a bit, then we eat dinner, do Hayden's bath and then I head down to my office to work the rest of the evening while Phil finishes Hayden's bedtime routine and then does his own thing. I need to figure out a way to schedule when I will work and when I will not. When you work from home, it's always there. Always something to do (even when I didn't have freelance work, I was finishing my online portfolio and resume). I've heard from other Work-at-Home moms that you have to schedule the time to work and schedule the "Family Time" so I will try that... I have to figure something out!